Depression

For some reason I've been depressed lately, causing me randomly almost cry. I was trying hard not to cry at play practice while we were having lunch, but it's not like anyone noticed. I guess I'm good at faking smiles, of course it's not like it's anything new to me. I don't know why I am depressed, or why I keep crying at random times. My boyfriend has noticed, but ,other than one other person, that's it. I wish people would for once notice me. I'm to shy and quiet for people to pay to much attention to me unless it's to bully me. I have plenty of bullies. I am sick of them, and they haven't helped my problems with insecurity and trust at all. I have very few people that I can actually trust, the I can actually tell anything or almost anything to. Why have people insisted on making my life miserable? They can stop trying now. They succeeded a long time ago.

Nothing

I have nothing to write about! I'm not super mad at anyone, and I don't really have that much to tell right now. I am depressed, but that is getting better and my friends have helped a lot. I've been busy, and tired, and dizzy. I went to the doctor and he said that I have fluid behind my eardrums and the medicine he gave me makes me even dizzier.

Pain is painful

I've been in pain. I've been dizzy for the past few days and to make things worse I got hit in the head with a volleyball today in gym... Now not only am I dizzy, but I have a headache too. But on the bright side, I got my report card today and I have straight A's. I can't decide whether I want to take German or Latin next year, I might go with Latin since I am probably going to be majoring in English when I'm in college.I wish my high school had more English electives, all we have are the main English classes that everyone has to take. At least I can take AP English in my junior and senior years. I am taking a lot of higher level classes, I would rather be challenged some then be bored like I am in 3 of the 4 classes I have now.

I need sleep

I need to get more sleep, go to bed earlier or something.. I went to a soccer game at my school with my boyfriend and I gave him a ride home and I ended up just passing out on his shoulder on the way home. I woke up and we were almost to his house. I don't think he minded me falling asleep on his shoulder though, and that definitely isn't the first time I've fallen asleep on his shoulder/in his arms. I can't believe that's in a few days we will have been together for three months.It actually feels like it's been longer, and I most definitely want for us to be together for a lot longer. I've been felling quite a range of emotions for the past few days, I've felt happy and angry and bored and spacey and very eh. I don't know why I've been feeling eh, I just have.