Depression

For some reason I've been depressed lately, causing me randomly almost cry. I was trying hard not to cry at play practice while we were having lunch, but it's not like anyone noticed. I guess I'm good at faking smiles, of course it's not like it's anything new to me. I don't know why I am depressed, or why I keep crying at random times. My boyfriend has noticed, but ,other than one other person, that's it. I wish people would for once notice me. I'm to shy and quiet for people to pay to much attention to me unless it's to bully me. I have plenty of bullies. I am sick of them, and they haven't helped my problems with insecurity and trust at all. I have very few people that I can actually trust, the I can actually tell anything or almost anything to. Why have people insisted on making my life miserable? They can stop trying now. They succeeded a long time ago.